some People think that I'm a strong person, some people think i'm rather cold just because I prefer to hide my feelings but the truth is that I'm lost inside myself, now more than ever, I lost my bf 3 days ago, he just died because of cardiac issues and i don't quite know how to feel.. as far as i know i just want him back so desperately that i know I can cry till there's no left of me, I hate missing the one that I love, hate being this way on xmass, I hate the fact tht i wont be able to see him again, to show him how much I love him and always will..i hate the fact that i can't just forget, i cant see any our pictures together ugh.. this is